Tuesday, May 22, 2012


I am chronically exhausted. Aside from the doctor's diagnosis of hyperventilation, I do feel the tension in my head, neck, throat and back. Its so tense that I feel veins will go BURST anytime.

I am also learning to manage my pain and panic better. I am taught by my spouse not to panic when I feel breathless nor choking. Easier said than done. So I must learn not to expect anyone to give an assurance rub on my back when that could be a life-saver at that point? Rather, I should try and keep my pain private. It worked the other day. When Attack came after I boarded 960 from the iPad training; and at Terminal 2's McD with Ayah witnessing it.

Im exhausted but my head could not stop thinking, thinking and thinking. Will I ever reach 34?


Wednesday, April 11, 2012


I really miss you, Mummy. Things have changed around here. I've been thinking about you alot! Was that you in my dreams lately?


Sunday, February 12, 2012


Wow. After 8 years of marriage, these 3-roses are my FIRST from him. I have thanked the husband. I shall treasure it because the chances of getting them again are odds. Hah.

Women. Im one of them. Hah.


Friday, February 10, 2012


That is an expression in response to whatever that has happened lately. Its like "whoosh... whoosh... KapoW..." I really wanna know if "proper breathing techniques" really work. -BlogPress-